A memoir of becoming; written as it happened.
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Coming Out
The Coming Out Letter to My Friends
Sixteen years ago, four weeks into testosterone, I sat down and wrote the story of how I came out to the first forty people at once… And then I never hit publish.
A Letter From My 14 Year Old Self
I found this handwritten note folded into a tight square, with skills of a 14 year old girl teetering on the brink of teenage angst and intense, closeted confusion. Looking back now, I feel so much heartache for this young girlboi who was SO desperately searching for anyone else in the world who felt like […]
Daily Coolness: “It was Like I’d Swallowed Rainbows!”
Ha 🙂 I really love this guy, Spencer — I'm very non-confrontational, too and really identified with a lot of his story... I love how he came out to his friends on Facebook, and I especially love the story about coming out to his family.Hmm. Too bad my parents don't drink...This is from It's T […]
Personal: Coming Out Woes and WHOAs!
I'm SO sorry that (once again) I kinda fell off the planet... it's definitely been a stressful few weeks, and I just haven't found the focus/energy to write — even though I really have wanted to.I guess I'm also a little frustrated with myself for not making more progress on the coming out front. If […]
Daily Coolness: “My Mama Tells How She Feels”
I found these videos from Jaden (kaynesworld on YouTube) forever ago, and have re-watched them over and over several times over the last few months.They've provided a LOT of comfort as I face coming out to my mom (and the rest of my family)...
T Update: Three Weeks (already!)
I've been trying to post for the last week and a half – in fact, I think this post makes a grand total of FIVE attempts. Yeeeeeah, I've started and subsequently BAILED on five different topics (don't worry, they're saved as Drafts, so maybe they'll get finished... Eventually.).I really want to write SOMETHING to document […]
Personal: Letters
I'm sorry I've been M.I.A. lately. I've had a busy week — erg, well, mentally busy anyway. I had my second appointment with Therapist 2.0 on Tuesday and now, as luck would have it, I ALSO have an appointment with a trans-friendly gynecologist (ugh, ugh, UGH!) this afternoon — BUT the good news is that […]
Personal: Progress (part 2)
Despite my fears and the many hurdles I still have yet to face, my therapist told me that I am ready (YEEEE!!! ::puke::)I was shocked and surprised and excited and scared, and I simultaneously experienced waves of thrill AND nausea.I was expecting to be months away from anything... I was expecting that she would need […]
Personal: Progress (part 1)
My poor ADD brain is so overloaded right now; I'm not really sure where to start...(Hmm... Perhaaaps I should start with an appointment to get back on some sorta meds for that damn ADD. Heh.)At any rate, I had my first appointment with my new** therapist yesterday Tuesday afternoon, and I'm still reeling from excitement/nervousness; […]
Personal: Visibility Among Lesbians
So, I hung out a couple of nights this week at a popular lesbian(ish) bar here in town, and wow... it really made me FEEL like a lesbian —err, rather, it's reminded me that I LOOK like a lesbian (duh, right? I know... I mean, up until fairly recently** I'd been living my life as […]
Personal: Regarding Transition
I just started the process of coming out as trans... Ha. I'm still not even sure what that means, for me, exactly. I've never been happy as a girl. I mean, I finally, eventually found a place that works (kind of) – living as a butch lesbian. I made it work. I've evolved into this […]