God Loves Diversity
My relationship with God has always been complicated. Mostly, because of the people who were standing between me and God (i.e. The Men of my religion growing up). Those outside people and belief systems made my inner (personal) relationship with “the Divine” even more complex and tumultuous.
When I finally started shifting and releasing those exterior barriers, my relationship with God became MUCH simpler and easier to navigate.
I definitely still have trauma associated with religion and the church. And I believe THAT is due (mostly) to those (SAME) other people who seem to only want to control my (and others') relationships with God, rather than focusing on their own.
“I am stronger and much more capable of change and growth than I could’ve known growing up...”
My therapist once suggested that I probably have PTSD due to my religious experiences growing up. (Duh.)
I felt judged, outcast, and generally not accepted by the community that I was taught to cling to and follow.
Of course I have trauma around my spiritual core. It caused such intense suffering I’m still healing from it.
I do recognize that I’m also a “hyper-sensitive person”, but I also KNOW that I am stronger and much more capable of change and growth than I could’ve known when I was that scared little kid, growing up.
I believe that part of the reason I’m still here—and ALIVE— is to share my unique perspective, especially the perspective of my inner child, inner teen, and inner young adult, who didn’t always have a community or resources to express their most confusing, inner feelings.
I’m continuously baffled by the people who believe that giving children access to resources and tools to help them better express themselves might be harmful.
I know, it must (mostly) come from a place of fear because they simply don’t understand…
How could they? They don’t understand, and many don’t even care to. But I also know, many people DO understand and want to hear more of my perspective. Who knows, those others might hear me, eventually—even if they don’t want to listen…
I was created in the image of my God—as a creator—with free will, and I should be able to express the diversity of the divine energy that flows through me—the same as “them”, the same as everyone.
I should not be judged or persecuted for being who God made me to be. No one should.